Ok so of course I have some good news and some bad news.

The good news is that I am going to school, been accepted, been paid for, happy me!

the bad news can be summoned up in this fine and wonderful song.




Are these words working do they work for you?
Is there something wrong between us?
Is there something I can do?
Is there some way I can take back all the times you threw away?
Been burning up the decade when you should've seized the day

I wonder why you're talking 'cause you're talking all the time
Will you ever get the message and just leave it all behind
The conversation's trivial but trivial is fine
When held up to the light

Do you think my personality is written in stone?
Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown
I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be
Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

I been the leader, I've been the follower
I've been the dreamer, I've been the wallower
I take the high road, I take the low road
Don't wanna be your mother

I've been down, boys, I've been down boys
Been right to the top
When you hear me coming you can hear a pin drop

Didn't mean to be annoying, didn't mean to make a mess
Never meant to cast a shadow but it's leading me to stress
The shrapnel from your heart is buried in my chest
And its 'not all me

Do you think my personality is written in stone?
Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown
I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be
Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

Well its been 4 months, and a few things have happened.


I lost my job
I seem to be having some health issues again.
I am planning on going back to school in January cause I am sick of all call center jobs.

They treat you like a number and try to brain wash you into thinking that your company is so great, but when you are having it rough they rear their ugly head at you and spit on you, and then toss you aside like a dead animal.

No more! if you have a piece of humanity left in you , avoid these 14 dollar an hour jobs that promise you the world only at the cost of your health and personal morals. I have already had 3 of them and I dont ever want to back into that world of repetitive tasks that amount to nothing, where your opinions really dont matter, and where your forced to work shit hours and have dick heads bitch at you about something that isnt in your power to change, and you have to take it and forget it, even though you find yourself wondering ... "Is my company really a piece of shit?" " How can I support a brand that really has no loyalty to its customers only their money?"

I have seen it all! I am done working for these managers, that feed you lines from a script, that they look at you as their yearly bonus instead of a real human being. They sold their morals for 40k a year and they will do anything it takes ( including pretending to be your friend) to make sure they get their stats met.
Its disgusting...


So yeah, Im a little bitter.


Anyways, in other news. Im going back to school. Im waiting for my acceptance letter to come for at least one of the programs I applied for, so we shall see.


Later

Hello all ,

So the anniversary of my mothers death is coming up soon she died last year , and it figures that the gods would take her from me on the birth of our much beloved country. So at times I find there can never be celebration for me on that day, however id like to think that I could celebrate her lust for life and her love for being free and therefore I could celebrate Canada Day and my moms life, however I am finding it harder everyday as the date comes closer .

I have however come to accept that her death, in that it has brought her peace that nothing in this world ever could. I love her and I will miss her very much.

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Nothing

According to LJ its been 4 weeks since my last rant or confession. Since David has also pointed this out I have been wondering what could possibly be so important that id have to post it.... to be frank .... nothing right now is...

I honestly have nothing good or bad to say. Ill try to update again once I can.

Current Location: Limbo
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Sadly nothing

Hi,

So I saw watchmen this weekend. It was good, though at times a little too gruesome for me.



So my saturday was great. Sunday however not so much, my cough has returned and though I have tried my best to keep from getting another one , it never seems to help.

My poor lungs......


I've also been getting these moments of feeling absolute dread or loniness, I have to continue to push through it and remind myself it can and will pass.

I haven't seen much of anyone lately. Work is a priority and it causes me to have very little free time, and since the time I have outside of work is so little, I just end up doing nothing with it except being tired and not wanting to do anything.

Its depressing actually.

Current Location: work_cause I live here you know?
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: lily allen fuck you

So,

As many of you may know I love to sing, and I have this unhealthy addiction to music :P Where ever I am, I am either humming a tune or have a song playing in my head, or I am talking to someone about how much I hate the way the main stream music industry is going.

I have decided to openly state that I am and have been persuing this love a little further by getting professional lessons. I have been working with a fabulous teacher who has reminded me on the core values of the art. She has made me love music as a hobby again. Sadly there was a few years where I felt like there was no point and that I could never hope to be as good as some of my favourite opera singers, my instructor has renewed my love for the art.



I of course have David to thank for introuducing me to her. Once again my bestfriend has come thru for me.


So occasionally you might read little blurbs on how I am doing with this.

Also, does anyone know a good rate for a recording studio?

Well some good news!

I got a pay raise! I got a promotion! I have a cold? ok, that not really good news , but its that season.

So in April Brian and I are planning on going to the Dominican for a much needed vacation, and while I am estatic about this ventre to the tropics I start to thinking that I am petrified of large bodies of water..... How will I cope?, well I have a system in place, I will swim in shallow water so I can avoid the nastiness of sharks and larger fishes. Brian will make with the snorkelling, and I will pray that the sharks are scared of his mad kung fu panda skills.

Yes in this case I am a scaredy Kat!

But I want a tan, and I want free beverages of the booze like nature oh and nice white sand beaches... so yes I will have to think of all the grand and fabulous things that await me.

Then perhaps I wont be so scared, also... I should really stop watching shark attack videos on you tube... or looking up the chances of death in coral reefs... ughhh

why do I do this?

There are occasions where people feel that they can get away with making a stupid remark or acting in a stupid way. I can only deal with so much before I seriously have to consider wether or not this person or persons even knows what the hell they think they are doing, and ask them to explain to me how they feel they have the right to get away with it.

My largest and most hatest level of stupidity are people who talk about other behind their backs with very little information of actual truth about the situation and dont think that it wont get back to the person who it would hurt the most . I really feel sorry for those people. Cause they are dumb enough to think that someone wont talk.

So since I have obviously shown that people have eyes and ears everywhere, be careful what you talk about, cause honestly you tell the wrong person chances are the wrong person will hear about it.

People should realize that the worst possible thing you can do to a friend is talk about all these things bad about them behind their back and not allow them to change so you have something to talk about when your bored. Wakeup you fucktards! it doesnt make you a friend it makes you evil.

A friend will let you know what that they feel you are doing something that may create tension. Thats a true friend, I have a small level of friends like this. Who I trust to do the right thing, other than just fit in with a crowd.

Peace.

Wow its been crazy long since I have posted here.

Life is going good, my health is bleh but thats to be expected. It specialist this and dietian that.

I plan on flying to the tropics in April for my 24th birthday, since I havent really had a vacation in over 8 years. Many adventures, but no actual lay on the beach and relax type of vacation. Its about freaking time!

Finally got glasses, they are quaint. My hope is that they are going to help with the severe headaches I get staring at a PC screen all day. Also, im nearsighted...its not too bad though almost nothing -.75 and -.50 .

I am waiting for spring.... I hate this cold weather.

My hair is red now. I had to chop it quite a bit , so much damage from everything. Weather, Stress.

My father's birthday was on the 23rd I miss him.... I called my cusion
Lidia yesterday Im planning on going to Italy to see were my father grewup, you know to get connected and what not.

I still plan on changing my last name. And recieving duel citizenship, so I can work in Europe if I want or anywhere in Italy, but thats a long ways away.

Starting driving lessons soon. My G1 is about to expire :(

In Flanders Feilds the poppies blow
Between the crosses row on row
That mark our Place in the Sky
The Larks still bravely singing fly
Scarce amid to the guns below

We are the dead short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow
Loved and were loved
And now we lie in Flandes Fields

Take up our quarrel with the foe
To you from falling hands we throw
the tourch be yours hold it high
If ye Breaks faith with us who die
We shall not sleep through the poppies grow
In flanders Feilds


In memory of my Father who fought in ITALY and died here.....