Hello all ,

So the anniversary of my mothers death is coming up soon she died last year , and it figures that the gods would take her from me on the birth of our much beloved country. So at times I find there can never be celebration for me on that day, however id like to think that I could celebrate her lust for life and her love for being free and therefore I could celebrate Canada Day and my moms life, however I am finding it harder everyday as the date comes closer .

I have however come to accept that her death, in that it has brought her peace that nothing in this world ever could. I love her and I will miss her very much.

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Nothing

According to LJ its been 4 weeks since my last rant or confession. Since David has also pointed this out I have been wondering what could possibly be so important that id have to post it.... to be frank .... nothing right now is...

I honestly have nothing good or bad to say. Ill try to update again once I can.

Current Location: Limbo
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Sadly nothing

Hi,

So I saw watchmen this weekend. It was good, though at times a little too gruesome for me.



So my saturday was great. Sunday however not so much, my cough has returned and though I have tried my best to keep from getting another one , it never seems to help.

My poor lungs......


I've also been getting these moments of feeling absolute dread or loniness, I have to continue to push through it and remind myself it can and will pass.

I haven't seen much of anyone lately. Work is a priority and it causes me to have very little free time, and since the time I have outside of work is so little, I just end up doing nothing with it except being tired and not wanting to do anything.

Its depressing actually.

Current Location: work_cause I live here you know?
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: lily allen fuck you

So,

As many of you may know I love to sing, and I have this unhealthy addiction to music :P Where ever I am, I am either humming a tune or have a song playing in my head, or I am talking to someone about how much I hate the way the main stream music industry is going.

I have decided to openly state that I am and have been persuing this love a little further by getting professional lessons. I have been working with a fabulous teacher who has reminded me on the core values of the art. She has made me love music as a hobby again. Sadly there was a few years where I felt like there was no point and that I could never hope to be as good as some of my favourite opera singers, my instructor has renewed my love for the art.



I of course have David to thank for introuducing me to her. Once again my bestfriend has come thru for me.


So occasionally you might read little blurbs on how I am doing with this.

Also, does anyone know a good rate for a recording studio?

Well some good news!

I got a pay raise! I got a promotion! I have a cold? ok, that not really good news , but its that season.

So in April Brian and I are planning on going to the Dominican for a much needed vacation, and while I am estatic about this ventre to the tropics I start to thinking that I am petrified of large bodies of water..... How will I cope?, well I have a system in place, I will swim in shallow water so I can avoid the nastiness of sharks and larger fishes. Brian will make with the snorkelling, and I will pray that the sharks are scared of his mad kung fu panda skills.

Yes in this case I am a scaredy Kat!

But I want a tan, and I want free beverages of the booze like nature oh and nice white sand beaches... so yes I will have to think of all the grand and fabulous things that await me.

Then perhaps I wont be so scared, also... I should really stop watching shark attack videos on you tube... or looking up the chances of death in coral reefs... ughhh

why do I do this?

There are occasions where people feel that they can get away with making a stupid remark or acting in a stupid way. I can only deal with so much before I seriously have to consider wether or not this person or persons even knows what the hell they think they are doing, and ask them to explain to me how they feel they have the right to get away with it.

My largest and most hatest level of stupidity are people who talk about other behind their backs with very little information of actual truth about the situation and dont think that it wont get back to the person who it would hurt the most . I really feel sorry for those people. Cause they are dumb enough to think that someone wont talk.

So since I have obviously shown that people have eyes and ears everywhere, be careful what you talk about, cause honestly you tell the wrong person chances are the wrong person will hear about it.

People should realize that the worst possible thing you can do to a friend is talk about all these things bad about them behind their back and not allow them to change so you have something to talk about when your bored. Wakeup you fucktards! it doesnt make you a friend it makes you evil.

A friend will let you know what that they feel you are doing something that may create tension. Thats a true friend, I have a small level of friends like this. Who I trust to do the right thing, other than just fit in with a crowd.

Peace.

Wow its been crazy long since I have posted here.

Life is going good, my health is bleh but thats to be expected. It specialist this and dietian that.

I plan on flying to the tropics in April for my 24th birthday, since I havent really had a vacation in over 8 years. Many adventures, but no actual lay on the beach and relax type of vacation. Its about freaking time!

Finally got glasses, they are quaint. My hope is that they are going to help with the severe headaches I get staring at a PC screen all day. Also, im nearsighted...its not too bad though almost nothing -.75 and -.50 .

I am waiting for spring.... I hate this cold weather.

My hair is red now. I had to chop it quite a bit , so much damage from everything. Weather, Stress.

My father's birthday was on the 23rd I miss him.... I called my cusion
Lidia yesterday Im planning on going to Italy to see were my father grewup, you know to get connected and what not.

I still plan on changing my last name. And recieving duel citizenship, so I can work in Europe if I want or anywhere in Italy, but thats a long ways away.

Starting driving lessons soon. My G1 is about to expire :(

In Flanders Feilds the poppies blow
Between the crosses row on row
That mark our Place in the Sky
The Larks still bravely singing fly
Scarce amid to the guns below

We are the dead short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow
Loved and were loved
And now we lie in Flandes Fields

Take up our quarrel with the foe
To you from falling hands we throw
the tourch be yours hold it high
If ye Breaks faith with us who die
We shall not sleep through the poppies grow
In flanders Feilds


In memory of my Father who fought in ITALY and died here.....

Hello all who take the time to read this.


Its currently 2:28 and Friday November the 7th. I have recently discovered the gym again, after a horrible 2 weeks of the plauge which started monday october 20th with a high fever of 102 and ended finally after halloween.

I work out 3 to 4 times a week now. I find excerise to be the easist part of this need to go back to the way my body was 5 years ago, its the eating healthy and life stlye change thats the problem. As you can imagine, I have no problem eating or purchasing healthy foods....there are other issues there.

I actually love whole wheat pasta, yogurt, fruits, brocooli and the fine assortment of foods that will make me healthier.

As of late I find myself bored, which is never good for me, being bored causes a whole lot of shit in my life cause I start to think.

Which brings me to my next point.

I might have to old off my plans for Japan until 2010 since money needs to go towards financing an education. I am the reverse when it comes to my industry and interest, I have the Xp now I need the papers. I am thinking something in the social work or youth work industry. More so, I would like to work for the government.


Halloween was good. Samhain was better.


Im not really looking forward to Yule. Cause my parents wont be there.


I have sort of been adopted by Brians family, so I wont be lonley.


I guess Im done.

Current Location: Work ( as usual I dont leave, I live here)
Current Music: Rihanna Disturbia (fuck you I like it)

So I went and got two new male beta's and a female beta yesterday @ PJ's Yorkdale. All of them are so pretty and are yet to be named idea's anyone?


I graduate from training at the new work place today, when I was handed my certificate I was told I knew more about the Asian culture than my trainer who is Asian how incredibly akward!

I got my hair cut and styled on friday, (refer to my facebook photo)


Around 7pm we will be heading to Mandarin for graduation dinner...funnnnn

I feel like a bloated whale because these past 2 nights I have eaten out for dinner even though I have ample amounts of food at home.


Saturday night was Ryons going away party thing! it was wonderfull I bought Ryon a blow job and wished him a safe trip back to Japan!