Katherine

Something I should have said long ago.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 20:19:56 GMT

Ok so of course I have some good news and some bad news.

The good news is that I am going to school, been accepted, been paid for, happy me!

the bad news can be summoned up in this fine and wonderful song.

Are these words working do they work for you?
Is there something wrong between us?
Is there something I can do?
Is there some way I can take back all the times you threw away?
Been burning up the decade when you should've seized the day

I wonder why you're talking 'cause you're talking all the time
Will you ever get the message and just leave it all behind
The conversation's trivial but trivial is fine
When held up to the light

Do you think my personality is written in stone?
Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown
I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be
Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

I been the leader, I've been the follower
I've been the dreamer, I've been the wallower
I take the high road, I take the low road
Don't wanna be your mother

I've been down, boys, I've been down boys
Been right to the top
When you hear me coming you can hear a pin drop

Didn't mean to be annoying, didn't mean to make a mess
Never meant to cast a shadow but it's leading me to stress
The shrapnel from your heart is buried in my chest
And its 'not all me

Do you think my personality is written in stone?
Are you positively certain that you know what you've been shown
I'm a snapshot of the person that you think I ought to be
Now give it up! Give it up! Give it up!

4 months!

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 04:24:57 GMT

Well its been 4 months, and a few things have happened.

I lost my job
I seem to be having some health issues again.
I am planning on going back to school in January cause I am sick of all call center jobs.

They treat you like a number and try to brain wash you into thinking that your company is so great, but when you are having it rough they rear their ugly head at you and spit on you, and then toss you aside like a dead animal.

No more! if you have a piece of humanity left in you , avoid these 14 dollar an hour jobs that promise you the world only at the cost of your health and personal morals. I have already had 3 of them and I dont ever want to back into that world of repetitive tasks that amount to nothing, where your opinions really dont matter, and where your forced to work shit hours and have dick heads bitch at you about something that isnt in your power to change, and you have to take it and forget it, even though you find yourself wondering ... "Is my company really a piece of shit?" " How can I support a brand that really has no loyalty to its customers only their money?"

I have seen it all! I am done working for these managers, that feed you lines from a script, that they look at you as their yearly bonus instead of a real human being. They sold their morals for 40k a year and they will do anything it takes ( including pretending to be your friend) to make sure they get their stats met.
Its disgusting...

So yeah, Im a little bitter.

Anyways, in other news. Im going back to school. Im waiting for my acceptance letter to come for at least one of the programs I applied for, so we shall see.

Later

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 22:40:28 GMT

Hello all ,

So the anniversary of my mothers death is coming up soon she died last year , and it figures that the gods would take her from me on the birth of our much beloved country. So at times I find there can never be celebration for me on that day, however id like to think that I could celebrate her lust for life and her love for being free and therefore I could celebrate Canada Day and my moms life, however I am finding it harder everyday as the date comes closer .

I have however come to accept that her death, in that it has brought her peace that nothing in this world ever could. I love her and I will miss her very much.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 14:16:36 GMT

According to LJ its been 4 weeks since my last rant or confession. Since David has also pointed this out I have been wondering what could possibly be so important that id have to post it.... to be frank .... nothing right now is...

I honestly have nothing good or bad to say. Ill try to update again once I can.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 14:01:50 GMT

Hi,

So I saw watchmen this weekend. It was good, though at times a little too gruesome for me.

So my saturday was great. Sunday however not so much, my cough has returned and though I have tried my best to keep from getting another one , it never seems to help.

My poor lungs......

I've also been getting these moments of feeling absolute dread or loniness, I have to continue to push through it and remind myself it can and will pass.

I haven't seen much of anyone lately. Work is a priority and it causes me to have very little free time, and since the time I have outside of work is so little, I just end up doing nothing with it except being tired and not wanting to do anything.

Its depressing actually.

Work

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 16:22:26 GMT

So,

As many of you may know I love to sing, and I have this unhealthy addiction to music :P Where ever I am, I am either humming a tune or have a song playing in my head, or I am talking to someone about how much I hate the way the main stream music industry is going.

I have decided to openly state that I am and have been persuing this love a little further by getting professional lessons. I have been working with a fabulous teacher who has reminded me on the core values of the art. She has made me love music as a hobby again. Sadly there was a few years where I felt like there was no point and that I could never hope to be as good as some of my favourite opera singers, my instructor has renewed my love for the art.

I of course have David to thank for introuducing me to her. Once again my bestfriend has come thru for me.

So occasionally you might read little blurbs on how I am doing with this.

Also, does anyone know a good rate for a recording studio?

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 16:58:44 GMT

Well some good news!

I got a pay raise! I got a promotion! I have a cold? ok, that not really good news , but its that season.

So in April Brian and I are planning on going to the Dominican for a much needed vacation, and while I am estatic about this ventre to the tropics I start to thinking that I am petrified of large bodies of water..... How will I cope?, well I have a system in place, I will swim in shallow water so I can avoid the nastiness of sharks and larger fishes. Brian will make with the snorkelling, and I will pray that the sharks are scared of his mad kung fu panda skills.

Yes in this case I am a scaredy Kat!

But I want a tan, and I want free beverages of the booze like nature oh and nice white sand beaches... so yes I will have to think of all the grand and fabulous things that await me.

Then perhaps I wont be so scared, also... I should really stop watching shark attack videos on you tube... or looking up the chances of death in coral reefs... ughhh

why do I do this?

STUPID!

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:06:09 GMT

There are occasions where people feel that they can get away with making a stupid remark or acting in a stupid way. I can only deal with so much before I seriously have to consider wether or not this person or persons even knows what the hell they think they are doing, and ask them to explain to me how they feel they have the right to get away with it.

My largest and most hatest level of stupidity are people who talk about other behind their backs with very little information of actual truth about the situation and dont think that it wont get back to the person who it would hurt the most . I really feel sorry for those people. Cause they are dumb enough to think that someone wont talk.

So since I have obviously shown that people have eyes and ears everywhere, be careful what you talk about, cause honestly you tell the wrong person chances are the wrong person will hear about it.

People should realize that the worst possible thing you can do to a friend is talk about all these things bad about them behind their back and not allow them to change so you have something to talk about when your bored. Wakeup you fucktards! it doesnt make you a friend it makes you evil.

A friend will let you know what that they feel you are doing something that may create tension. Thats a true friend, I have a small level of friends like this. Who I trust to do the right thing, other than just fit in with a crowd.

Peace.

OMG!

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 14:04:55 GMT

Wow its been crazy long since I have posted here.

Life is going good, my health is bleh but thats to be expected. It specialist this and dietian that.

I plan on flying to the tropics in April for my 24th birthday, since I havent really had a vacation in over 8 years. Many adventures, but no actual lay on the beach and relax type of vacation. Its about freaking time!

Finally got glasses, they are quaint. My hope is that they are going to help with the severe headaches I get staring at a PC screen all day. Also, im nearsighted...its not too bad though almost nothing -.75 and -.50 .

I am waiting for spring.... I hate this cold weather.

My hair is red now. I had to chop it quite a bit , so much damage from everything. Weather, Stress.

My father's birthday was on the 23rd I miss him.... I called my cusion
Lidia yesterday Im planning on going to Italy to see were my father grewup, you know to get connected and what not.

I still plan on changing my last name. And recieving duel citizenship, so I can work in Europe if I want or anywhere in Italy, but thats a long ways away.

Starting driving lessons soon. My G1 is about to expire :(

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 13:58:56 GMT

In Flanders Feilds the poppies blow
Between the crosses row on row
That mark our Place in the Sky
The Larks still bravely singing fly
Scarce amid to the guns below

We are the dead short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow
Loved and were loved
And now we lie in Flandes Fields

Take up our quarrel with the foe
To you from falling hands we throw
the tourch be yours hold it high
If ye Breaks faith with us who die
We shall not sleep through the poppies grow
In flanders Feilds

In memory of my Father who fought in ITALY and died here.....

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 19:42:04 GMT

Hello all who take the time to read this.

Its currently 2:28 and Friday November the 7th. I have recently discovered the gym again, after a horrible 2 weeks of the plauge which started monday october 20th with a high fever of 102 and ended finally after halloween.

I work out 3 to 4 times a week now. I find excerise to be the easist part of this need to go back to the way my body was 5 years ago, its the eating healthy and life stlye change thats the problem. As you can imagine, I have no problem eating or purchasing healthy foods....there are other issues there.

I actually love whole wheat pasta, yogurt, fruits, brocooli and the fine assortment of foods that will make me healthier.

As of late I find myself bored, which is never good for me, being bored causes a whole lot of shit in my life cause I start to think.

Which brings me to my next point.

I might have to old off my plans for Japan until 2010 since money needs to go towards financing an education. I am the reverse when it comes to my industry and interest, I have the Xp now I need the papers. I am thinking something in the social work or youth work industry. More so, I would like to work for the government.

Halloween was good. Samhain was better.

Im not really looking forward to Yule. Cause my parents wont be there.

I have sort of been adopted by Brians family, so I wont be lonley.

I guess Im done.

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 19:53:13 GMT

So I went and got two new male beta's and a female beta yesterday @ PJ's Yorkdale. All of them are so pretty and are yet to be named idea's anyone?

I graduate from training at the new work place today, when I was handed my certificate I was told I knew more about the Asian culture than my trainer who is Asian how incredibly akward!

I got my hair cut and styled on friday, (refer to my facebook photo)

Around 7pm we will be heading to Mandarin for graduation dinner...funnnnn

I feel like a bloated whale because these past 2 nights I have eaten out for dinner even though I have ample amounts of food at home.

Saturday night was Ryons going away party thing! it was wonderfull I bought Ryon a blow job and wished him a safe trip back to Japan!

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 00:00:18 GMT

So I had my final test in training today. Needless to say I am damn nervous, its completely normal I think when your job is on the line and you need to attatin 80 percent or you are let go.

I have been trying my best to head to the gym 3 times a week, and if I dont
I try my best to work out in other ways. Be it, walking, dancing, sex?

So I have also decided that after training, and when my job becomes more stable, I will be heading down the road of vocal lessons, to see what I can salvage of my voice.

Lets see how that turns out.

I have my parents memories looming over me as of late, I draw on all their good qualities to give me strength in the times ahead. I hope they are well.

In other news:

My fish Orion died today... he was a pretty blue beta that I rescued from a previous co-worker who wanted to flush him down the toliet. I had him in good health for almost 2 years. My poor purty fishy...

Japan!

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 22:29:33 GMT

Japan Report in Full

On July 21st 2008, I embarked on one of the best vacations of my life. I journeyed to the Land of the Rising Sun. Yes, 12 hours of flying took me to Japan. I arrived in the afternoon at Japan's Narita International Airport. Upon arriving at the airport, David and I had to issue our fingerprints and verify that we intended to leave within 90 days.

Leaving the airport terminal and heading for the train I needed to go to the bathroom. That's when I came face to face with the Benjo! I was quite perturbed and swore that despite my love for Japan and my obsession with its culture I would never use one. So I promptly headed to the handicapped bathroom and did my business there.

A little bit about Narita:

Nartia is in Chiba prefecture and is a small flat area about an hour away from Tokyo. It's pretty much the only flat area in Japan, and it contained an abundance of rice paddies and farms. It does have small clusters of houses and then more farms.

Upon arriving in Tokyo, at Ueno Station, David and I headed by subway to Asakusa. There we met our friend, Ryon, and headed to the Hotel Asakusa Mikawaya which is where David and I would be staying for the next week. It was incredibly hot in Japan, even in the evenings; the best advice I could give you is to make sure to have a fan and a handkerchief with you at all times while adventuring, even in the evening. Luckily for us, the hotel rooms were air conditioned!

After leaving our luggage and sitting for a bit to catch our breaths we headed out into Asakusa for dinner where we had monjayaki and okonomiyaki. It was delicious!

Note: One of my favourite parts of Japan was the unique and fabulous food so you will hear a lot about it in this blurb.

The next day we woke up around 4:30 a.m. (which is when the sun rises in Japan), and a couple of hours later we headed to the Tsukiji Shijo, the most famous Japanese fish market. There I saw the sights, sounds, and smells of a very busy fish market. We had to dodge vans, scooters, and carts to finally reach a recommended and rather quaint little sushi place for a much deserved breakfast. Though a little pricey, it was by far the best sushi I had ever tasted, which would make sense since it is considered the freshest sushi in the world.

From the fish market we saw Tsukiji Honganji (Temple), where I prayed for a good time and some rain (which you should only do once as I will explain later). It was a beautiful Buddhist temple.

From there we headed to Ginza (basically Tokyo's 5th Avenue) to see the kabuki play, "Yoshitsune Senbonzakura," a lovely work with translation and explanation provided by a wireless and well-timed earset that you could rent for a decent price. After kabuki, we headed back to Asakusa and promptly fell asleep until around 10 p.m., and then fell asleep again till around 4:30 the next morning.

The next day, we headed to Kamakura where we saw the Daibutsu (Great Buddha), the second-largest Buddha statue in Japan, and the Hachiman Shrine. Hachiman is one of the the gods of war in Shinto belief. It was a lot of stairs to climb to the top to the main shrine, but it was worth it.

Note: I did sample a Japanese McDonald's at this time, where I had a Filet-o-Ebi, fries, and Qoo (a well-known soft drink). That is when I fell in love with melon soda.

The Daibutsu was very beautiful and we actually got to go inside the Buddha. They had reinforced its neck and base to keep it safe from floods and earthquakes. I prayed at both the temple and shrine for safety, fun, and -- of course -- rain (big mistake). The Hachiman shrine is also where I spiritually recharged my magatama, a charm that I am constantly wearing around my neck. Out of most things I think that Kamakura was by far one of my favourite places to see.

From Kamakura we headed to Yokohama where we met up with Ryon and headed out to dinner. I got to see one of the tallest buildings in Japan. We had some delicious yakitori for dinner, then David and I headed back to our hotel in Asakusa, Tokyo. Sadly, we had no ice cream or karaoke that night as was previously planned, due to mis-timings and and brain farts. Ryon even made a spectacle in front of the beloved ice cream parlor, but was ignored by the workers who were cleaning and closing up for the night.

Note: During our stay in Asakusa we frequented the nearby Daily Yamazaki (a convenience store chain) for our breakfast, which usually consisted of onigri and iced coffee, and usually some other kind of bread or something (melon pan, yakisoba pan, sandwich, etc.).

Also ice cream! Virgin Frozen Yogurt and red bean desserts were some of the favourites.

The next day which was Thursday (sighhh it all went soooo fast), we tromped around Asakusa and shopped at the Shin-Nakamise-dori for a yukata (a light summer kimono), however being a larger gaijin I had to settle for a jinbei instead (a two-piece outfit). We also visited the local shrines and temples in the area, notably Sensouji, then Ueno Park and saw the Toyko national Museum and then Tokyo tower. The sunset was beautiful. We met up with Ryon again in Akihabara that evening, but to our surprise, everything had closed by the time we got there. We decided to try again and come back the next day.

Friday I went back to Akihabara for some more shopping, and I exchanged my Japan Rail Pass voucher for a Rail Pass at Ueno Station. We also headed to Harajuku and the Meiji Shrine, where I purchased a sacred arrow. After the Meiji shrine we headed to Ikebukuro for karaoke with Ryon and another friend, Peeko. It was tons of fun and Japan does Karaoke right! It's very serious business!

Saturday I went shopping for manga at the Mandarake in Shibuya, before returning to Asakusa for the annual Sumidagawa Hanabi Taikai (a famous fireworks festival). It was spectacular and I loved every minute of it. This is where I wore my Jinbei and David wore his yukata so we gaijin could fit in with the festival.

There were so many beautiful yukata and kimono that came in various different colours and patterns. Ryon did some video recording and David took a ton of pictures! After the fireworks festival we went back to Shin-Nakamise to go to a kaitenzushi-ya (sushi-go-round), which basically is a restaurant that has sushi on a conveyor belt which you pick and you pay according to the pattern or colour of the plate selected. It was delicious and decently priced, the lowest being 130 yen ($1.30) for 2 pieces.

On Sunday, after leaving Tokyo to head to Kyoto, we went to a hotspring town called Hakone where David, Ryon, and I relaxed and got drunk by osmosis (hehe well I did in the sake bath!). It was wonderful! I did not want to leave! We carried only a wristband which tallied up the cost of our stay and whatever we purchased or bought extra while in the resort. At the end we stuck the wristband into a machine and it displayed our invoice on a screen.

After relaxing in Hakone we headed to Odawara and caught the Hikari (the second-fastest shinkansen in Japan) to Kyoto.

In Kyoto we stayed at the Tomiya Ryokan, which was right across the street from Kyoto Station. I was very happy with it! I used the public bath almost every night to heal my sore muscles from all the walking that David was putting me through.

Ok so here is where I talk about why it isn't a good idea to pray to every deity in a shrine and at every Buddhist temple for rain. So the next morning we were going to head out, however.... the weather had other plans. It rained... and it rained... and it RAINED! So much in fact that when you walked in it you soaked your pants even with an umbrella. So the lesson learned is DON'T PRAY FOR RAIN AT EVERY DAMN TEMPLE AND SHRINE YOU GO TO! The gods are funny and will grant your request in the abundance that you asked for it. I prayed at every temple and shrine for it, so you can do the math heh. Needless to say, my travel partner has told me that in the future I am not to pray for it all. Japan's gods like to play tricks on us silly gaijin. We got to see the shopping areas in and around Kyoto station, though.

So we only really had 3 days in Kyoto so here is what I remember of it. We saw Sagano Takehayahshi or bamboo forest. Climbed Mt. Iwatayama and saw some monkeys at the Iwatayama Monkey Park. Then the lovely Kyoto sunset from inside Kyoto Tower. Wednesday we travelled to Nijo-jo (or Second Avenue Castle) where the Tokugawa Shogunate ruled for a couple hundred years before relinquishing power to the emperor at the start of the Meiji Restoration.

On Thursday, we headed back to Tokyo for my final night's stay. Ryon, David, and I went to Roppongi and ate at the Hard Rock Cafe (mostly for the yummy dessert nachos). The hotel I stayed at for my final night was called the Sukeroku no Yado Sadachiyo it was amazing! and I received a parting gift. A small wooden charm with my name on the back and the name of the hotel on the front.

The journey to the airport was a relaxing one. Air Canada overbooked my flight so I got to fly Continental Airlines home business class! and then from Newark, NJ, I flew Air Canada Jazz business class to Toronto.

I then promptly slept for a day and a half.

Weight loss 11.2 lbs.

So that was Japan in 12 days! I WANNA GO BACK!

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 23:20:43 GMT

I know I promised to a few people that I would no longer moan and groan on LJ.

However, today is an exception. So @ the new job we had our first test in training, I scored in the 90's which sort of dissapointed me cause I was aiming for 100 percent.

So I txt my bestfriend to tell him all about how good I was feeling about said score, no response. It's about 7:18 pm and I have not even gotten a congrats or a you see there was nothing to it. Just dead air. I know I usually freak out and hope the person is okay, so I did. Still no response.

So here I am now, stilling at work on lunch wondering why I cannot get a hold of bestfriend! Now this may sound a little crazy, obssesive even, but any other day I would not care as much as I do today!

Now I share it with my LJ and hope that people are listeing.

I passed my first assessment 95.06 percent! woot!

*bows*

UPDATE: So apparently my best friend had layed comatose for 15 hours sleeping off jet lag from Japan. However, now he is back on Japan's clock so who knows
how this will fair for him.

Sorry David :(

Thank you

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 00:57:39 GMT

here is a video with some of my great adventure.

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 16:36:06 GMT

Hello,

So I am leaving for Japan in 2 days, everyone around me agree's that it was about time I took a much needed vacation. I will be uploading videos as much as I can. I am very nervous, I havent been on a plane since I was 16.

I think I do need it. This past month and a half has been hell for me. I've lost both my parents , one to COPD and the other a heart attack , and I feel that coping with it has been a roller coaster of acceptance and sadness.

I have been silent till now, cause I needed time to accept that this was it, and I wont see them smile or laugh or cry or yell again. I am still in shock, I still cannot believe it.

My mother was a good person, she just had some really bad habits.
My father was a good person, he just hated the fact that he was getting old.

Both of my parents taught me to live life to the fullest and to love and appreciate everything
I have. My only regrets are my own and I still have a lot of healing to do. I suppose they are
together now, and that makes me happy and lightens my spirits a bit.

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 15:27:11 GMT

Loss is something I know all to well lately. My mother died three days ago, a heart attack.
You know what they say at times, once one goes the other follows. I just cannot believe that they are both gone now. I feel like an orphan.

Im still planning on going to Japan in 2 weeks, however I hope it will help with the grieving process.

I miss them both so much... it just makes me very very sad.

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 14:30:08 GMT

So I am being crossed trained into Portables now for Apple. This amuses me.

I have a headache, this weather...grrrrr! Its going to be a hot next three days, thank the gods for the forecasted rain thats coming with it. It may be humid, but at least a thunderstorm will lightening my spirits.

I miss my dad.

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 13:25:41 GMT

Well for some good news. Call flow is low, 8-12 min between calls. My shift has been changed to reasonable hours, like a 9-6 shift! hurahhhh! no more 3:30-midnight shifts!

I will be getting home at a reasonable hour, and be able to eat my lunch at noon and my supper before 1 am :P

Mon, 26 May 2008 15:45:28 GMT

My father died on Saturday....

Fri, 09 May 2008 02:32:41 GMT

Hello everyone,

I am at work right now trying my best to stay awake (screaming baby at 3 am not cool) my sisters Stella and Amanda were staying a couple of days with me with Amanda's 8 month old Lucas. They found their own little nook though , so they should be moving in this weekend.

I will miss them, Stella's cooking is soo yummy!

Right now I am also trying to nurse a headache while anticipating an email from David (my Kana lesson for this evening)

natures magatama

Tue, 06 May 2008 20:00:31 GMT

So during my lovely march through the woods on Beltaine. David and I stumbled across the most interesting site.
A nature made magatama

It was a very nice gift. :) Its sitting on my Alter at home now.

Faraday Lives!

Mon, 05 May 2008 22:13:11 GMT

One of Faraday's icey moments!

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 21:48:38 GMT

So today has been gloomy....

I havent really heard from David all day. No chipper remarks, no happy hellos. Just dead silence. Its been like this since Monday.. I wonder what is going on...

This weather is killing whatever brain cells I am trying to preserve.

Random people who I do not even know have been adding me on Facebook. If I do not know you, chances are I am not going to add you into my little world, unless I have met you in person, you do not get access. Some people do not understand that .... stupid people.

Chris emailed me today, wanting to hangout. I miss the guy, its been too long. He needs the brain food and I need to play catchup so I am hoping for us to meet up sometime in the near future, to adhere to both our needs, of wanting to touch base on what we have been doing for the past year.

It gets like that though , we go months and months with nothing to say and then when we have something to say we chill out and bounce ideas off each other. I like friends like that, it means no drama really. We have something to talk about and its not just same old same old.

Been working on some more lyrics, but....